Let Him Show Up

"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do."- Eleanor Roosevelt



Reflecting on that quote brings a lot to mind.
I think about despair and overcoming it
I think about life changing moments in my life
the time I was lower than low, unrecognizably weak
the time I lost Delaney,
the time I lost Elizabeth, 
the times in life I felt trapped, without any direction, without any goal.


All those times in my life have something in common...

God's Intervention, His touch, His Love

It's amazing that the times you think you have no other
option other than to give up and let yourself fail, fall  or falter
that is when your faith is the only thing left holding onto you


This life can be so beautiful and heartbreaking
but what would be left of me if I let myself get torn apart
by every obstacle I ever face? 


Starting my new business was scary, this is my most recent "jump"
into a new adventure but you know what amazes me about my decision??
God has shown up , yet again full throttle showing me how he is 
working in my life, why he has lead me where I am and what I need to do 
to improve myself. Will I be perfect? No. Will it be without hard days? No.
But I look at this opportunity with a light that I haven't let myself shine on many things lately...
A positive light, and optimistic point of view and perspective that lets me see that everyday 
I am working on myself, for myself to become the better self  I want so badly to be!

So, I encourage anyone who is facing an obstacle, suffering in despair or losing hope...
Let God show up...
I love explaining about how I recently have dealt with meeting new people (I just moved)
and it is such a simple thought but so relevant when talking about God.


No one will no I'm here unless I go out and tell them I am,
None of my neighbors will know me unless I introduce myself to them...
None of my friends will know I need them unless I reach out to them...
and although God knows our pain and trials, He needs to know you want him to SHOW UP.
God knows we need him, but so many times people fail to know that they need God.
Let him know.
Let him show up.

On the Edge

I believe that impossible is only created when we rationalize.
I encourage you, today and always to be irrational. Believe in what
you think is inconceivable...pray like there are no certainties other than the truth known as your Savior, Jesus Christ.

Have you ever heard an insane conversion story?
Like so insane, far out, 180 degrees change in someone?

How does it make you feel? What does it do to your heart?
For me, it gives me hope. It lifts me up. It builds me up
and strengthens me.

Hope is a funny thing isn't it?
So easily lost on a stubbed toe
or a shattered glass. A day can go from
beautiful to hopeless in an instant.

But really it wasn't that Florida
souvenir glass that made you lose hope,
it was where your heart was.

There is a difference between a state of being
and the feelings you experience in any given moment

For example, you wake up and it's sunny
and quiet and things are going swimmingly,
but in your heart you are a mess -it's like
you are walking on the edge of a cliff range
and you are enjoying the beauty and the magnificence of
a sunset yet one step in the wrong direction
regardless of the beauty around you and...you're gone.

The problem isn't your feelings (that are so fleeting)
the problem is where YOU ARE AT.

Where is your heart? Are you unknowingly walking
on a rickety bridge completely unaware that you
could be in danger ?

If you stand before the pow’r of hell
and death is at your side,
know that I am with you, through it all
-The Song, Be not Afraid


Something I think I have learned about this little
Lenten Journey of my heart is where my heart truly is.
If i don't back away from evil, if i don't distance
myself from fear and run inland, no matter how long
I walk I will always be in danger of falling.
I have to run to my Father and into His safe hands.

He is with us, even when we are treading on evil ground.
Even when we are so close from being distanced from Him forever
He is as close to us then as He is to the most saintly of people
on earth. It's crazy because we are so easily broken
yet so easily healed by Him.

Hope is something I have really been struggling with,
truly it's hard to feel Full when you are so hungry
for something more. It's hard to focus and think clearly
when you let your worries be your god, and let
your weakness be your voice.

The Holy Spirit is a SHAKER.
He shakes us and wakes us up
as we are falling asleep...
drifting away from the truth...
and Grace is a Sustainer

this is the second part of the popular
verse 2 Cor. 12:9

"I will rather boast most gladly of my weaknesses,
in order that the power of Christ may dwell with me"

So there it is . I'm so weak
and I want more of you Lord.
I need your Grace, to sustain me.
and I need to know that when
I face darkness, that you are
the only way out, the only light
that can guide me safely to
your Hope.


Guide Me Lord, and Lead me
closer to your heart, I need you
to dwell closer than before.
Amen.

Inspire

Inspire: to breathe in, inhale


Something I find beautiful is our breath, our breathing.

If you think about what it means to breathe in and breathe out
something so simple,yet complex,
something that comes naturally, that sustains us,
that becomes what keeps us going, that calms us,
something that by simply controlling -can help
us run faster, push harder, perform better, sing louder
it's fascinating.

But not even that, when we breathe,
we are taking in pure oxygen and exhaling CO2.
We are renewing our body of what we need and pushing out
what we don't need.

Now to think about the word- inspire.
When I realize who I want to become,
the more I think about the definition
for inspire and the more I want to encompass EXACTLY
what that definition means.

We should strive to be that pureness, that
which someone sees and wants to be like, not in an
envious way but in a way that they long to
have what is inside, what sustains us -the longing for Christ.

For what else can I strive for, or what else should I want to portray
other than Christ? I wish to be the breath that awakens
that person who longs to exhale all their ailments, fears and sorrow.
I am called the be that breath, we all are.
And yes, how do you suppose to get from A to B.

Well it's as simple as Love.
How can we learn to start inspiring others? Love.
How can I look at the world with Hope? Love.
Because there is still an abundance of Love in this world,
an abundance of Hope and an abundance of Christ.
Their are still people that need inspiration, that need
that fresh breath to fill their hearts forever.

Breath of God,
breathe into me Your Spirit,Your hope
but most especially Your Love, that which will sustains me
under my afflictions and enable me to shine Your love unto others.
Amen.