Let Him Show Up

"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do."- Eleanor Roosevelt



Reflecting on that quote brings a lot to mind.
I think about despair and overcoming it
I think about life changing moments in my life
the time I was lower than low, unrecognizably weak
the time I lost Delaney,
the time I lost Elizabeth, 
the times in life I felt trapped, without any direction, without any goal.


All those times in my life have something in common...

God's Intervention, His touch, His Love

It's amazing that the times you think you have no other
option other than to give up and let yourself fail, fall  or falter
that is when your faith is the only thing left holding onto you


This life can be so beautiful and heartbreaking
but what would be left of me if I let myself get torn apart
by every obstacle I ever face? 


Starting my new business was scary, this is my most recent "jump"
into a new adventure but you know what amazes me about my decision??
God has shown up , yet again full throttle showing me how he is 
working in my life, why he has lead me where I am and what I need to do 
to improve myself. Will I be perfect? No. Will it be without hard days? No.
But I look at this opportunity with a light that I haven't let myself shine on many things lately...
A positive light, and optimistic point of view and perspective that lets me see that everyday 
I am working on myself, for myself to become the better self  I want so badly to be!

So, I encourage anyone who is facing an obstacle, suffering in despair or losing hope...
Let God show up...
I love explaining about how I recently have dealt with meeting new people (I just moved)
and it is such a simple thought but so relevant when talking about God.


No one will no I'm here unless I go out and tell them I am,
None of my neighbors will know me unless I introduce myself to them...
None of my friends will know I need them unless I reach out to them...
and although God knows our pain and trials, He needs to know you want him to SHOW UP.
God knows we need him, but so many times people fail to know that they need God.
Let him know.
Let him show up.

Inspire

Inspire: to breathe in, inhale


Something I find beautiful is our breath, our breathing.

If you think about what it means to breathe in and breathe out
something so simple,yet complex,
something that comes naturally, that sustains us,
that becomes what keeps us going, that calms us,
something that by simply controlling -can help
us run faster, push harder, perform better, sing louder
it's fascinating.

But not even that, when we breathe,
we are taking in pure oxygen and exhaling CO2.
We are renewing our body of what we need and pushing out
what we don't need.

Now to think about the word- inspire.
When I realize who I want to become,
the more I think about the definition
for inspire and the more I want to encompass EXACTLY
what that definition means.

We should strive to be that pureness, that
which someone sees and wants to be like, not in an
envious way but in a way that they long to
have what is inside, what sustains us -the longing for Christ.

For what else can I strive for, or what else should I want to portray
other than Christ? I wish to be the breath that awakens
that person who longs to exhale all their ailments, fears and sorrow.
I am called the be that breath, we all are.
And yes, how do you suppose to get from A to B.

Well it's as simple as Love.
How can we learn to start inspiring others? Love.
How can I look at the world with Hope? Love.
Because there is still an abundance of Love in this world,
an abundance of Hope and an abundance of Christ.
Their are still people that need inspiration, that need
that fresh breath to fill their hearts forever.

Breath of God,
breathe into me Your Spirit,Your hope
but most especially Your Love, that which will sustains me
under my afflictions and enable me to shine Your love unto others.
Amen.

It's all about Will

"So many times I went to you God but I was never really willing to change"

This is me paraphrasing something I heard recently and it struck me.
I think mainly because it hits the nail on the head for most of us
in our spiritual journey with God.

I think about my daily life and what I do for God
and it's hard for me to think, YES,yes i am willing to change!
because in many ways I'm not. I do trust God, I trusted him
with this move and that Stewart would get into medical school
and that everything would be okay and it has been. But
I'm talking about a deep change, a change that is radical, that
would move your world.

I know that Stewart and I talk about moving to Ecuador and living
their for a little while with our children when he is a doctor
but I like to talk to him about it every once and a while
- To make it real.
I don't want this dream of ours to fade away
and let "the American dream" get in the way
of God's plan for Stewart and our family.

I want to be willing to change on a dime,
the second God places a plan in my life.
Of course, practically I may not be able
to drop everything in a second
but I would be able to eventually
and that's what I always want to hold close to my heart,
the passion for His will in my life

The passion to surrender.


Dear Jesus,
let Your dreams for me
become my passions. Amen